The Santa Gunman

I've been seeing this news for the past five days whenever I open my Yahoo! Mail. I should find a way to filter the news I see on my Yahoo! Mail account. Santa killing people on Christmas eve? Disturbing.

Lost

I lost my black Estee Lauder pouch! My SSS ID is there. My driver's license is there. My Intellicare health card ID is there. I'm LOST!

Mumblings

Happiness.

Why do you have to pursue happiness? Are we all destined to be sad until we do something about it? I am unhappy. I guess it's my natural emotional state - to be horribly morose.

Life.

What am I living for? Basically...nothing. Oh well, that's not exactly right. Right now, there's one thing. New year. Hopefully it will be a happy one.

Solitude.

It seems like the endorphins in my body are slowly decreasing. I am, after all, a diminishing species. Only a few things can make me happy now. Hmm. What are they? At this time, I can only think of solitude. It gives me bliss. But there are times it's given me uncertainty and anxiety, too. But these are rare occasions. So, what if I go away? I want to be alone. But would I be happy? Probably.

Things I HAVE to do

This year had been rather disappointing for me. I haven't accomplished much. I feel so guilty of just going through the motions and not making an effort to do something to be proud of.

I hope I can do better next year. So, I'm making a list.

In no particular order, here is a list* of things I HAVE to do:

• Learn French, Swedish, Spanish and Latin
• Put into action my "Make A Difference" project
• Write the love stories in my head
• Add more to this list

Christmas Season

Christmas season is everyone's excuse to splurging in December. It's my excuse, too. I couldn't feel guilty about it being the miser that I am. Everytime I let them swipe my debit card and I'd start feeling bad about it, my head screams at me "What the heck? It's the Christmas season!". I dread January.

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How fulfilling it is to have my own laptop, finally. It's a used IBM ThinkPad R40e I bought on ebay for only PhP 6,000. Perfect for a cheapskate like me.

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Despite of myself, I have been using Globe Visibility for internet access. It's still freaking slow. It says HSDPA but I can't seem to connect to google. Grrr! Oh crap! It's raining. I have to get inside my apartment. Too bad I can only get HSDPA in my balcony. Oh well, there's no difference anyway.

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I enjoy this sense of solitary bliss - blogging on my laptop and in my balcony (it stopped raining). I will miss this. My apartment has been my quiet place for a little more than a year. In January, I will share this place (with its dues) with a friend who happens to be the loudest, noisiest person I know. I dread January.

TGIF

It's Friday, it's Friday! Yum!

What's the connection between Harry Potter and Twilight?

HAHAHA! Very funny!

Globe Visibility - Modern Gadget, Ancient Speed

A friend of mine bought a Globe Visibility 3G/USB modem a week ago. She tried it and got disappointed. It doesn't work where she lives, which is in Biñan, Laguna. So, she asked me to try it in the hopes that I'll buy it if it works in my apartment. After all, I was the one who suggested that she buy one.

I was kinda impressed with its looks. It's white and glossy and it has a microSD slot so it can function as a flash drive or at least that's what I think it's for. It's plug-and-play so I got no problem with the installation and the Globe connection manager program that came with the installation is user friendly.

On the connection manager, you'll see a signal bar and label which it tells you what signal you have. I was horrified to see I only have GPRS in my apartment. I tried connecting to the internet. Wow. Globe Visibility made me feel nostalgic. Really. I was cruising the net with speed that reminded me of my early college days when internet surfing costs P60/hour and the only connection available was dial up.

Just another fixation

I was searching google for pictures of Alice Cullen earlier today and I came across this blogger, nostalgicmiss, who wrote Twilight in Alice Cullen's point of view.

http://generalmumblings.blogspot.com/2008/05/alice-cullen.html

Wow! I'm on Chapter 9 now. Yeah, I already know. I'm an addict.

Sickly

I have flu. Again!

For the last few months since I got that free flu shot from our company clinic last July or August, I've been consistently having flu every month. Yeah, ironic! It's annoying and at the same time disturbing. I haven't been this sickly before.

Another song lyrics

The first time I heard this song by Robert Pattinson, I didn't like it. I couldn't make out the lyrics. My auditory faculties are not that great. Perhaps it has something to do with his accent as well. I thought accents are neutralized when you're singing. Anyway, after a while, I've grown to like er love this song. It's beautiful. Here's the lyrics:

Never Think

I should never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh love
So call me by my name

And save your soul
Save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done

I'll try to decide when
She'll lie in the end
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
So hold off
She should hold off
It's the one thing that I've known

Once I put my coat on
I coming out in this all wrong
She standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I'm in love
I'm in love

Girl save your soul
Go on save your soul
Before it's too far gone
And before nothing can be done

Cause without me
You got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
Without me you got it all
So hold on

Source: http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858749362/

Now I can sing along with Robert.

The general malaise of malcontent

I listened to RX earlier and heard this song. I'm not into dance music right now but the lyrics blew me away. Here's Moony's I Don't Know Why lyrics:


Never happy, not satisfied
Always complains for nothing
Hopes and dreams are fading away
It's not hard to figure it out
There's no doubt, you'll find a way
Live the moment, each and every day

CHORUS
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me
I cannot...
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me (in front of me)

Now I see here
It's always been there
People like their simple things
Live the moment, each and every day

CHORUS
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me
I cannot...
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me (in front of me)

Is it there?
Is it right there?
Right in front of you (right in front of you)
This is what you've been looking for
For a long, long time
Make it real, make it right now (make it right now, make it right now)
You've got to live it now

CHORUS
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me
I cannot...
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me (in front of me)

Source: http://top40-charts.com/songs/lyrics.php?sid=25053&string=I%20Don't%20Know%20Why


Never happy, not satisfied. Nowadays...who isn't?

Something heartwarming

This presentation warms the heart.

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/

Mind boggled

There are reasons why I quit teaching college. But, below are the reasons why I didn't want to become a teacher in the first place. They're really funny, but it must be frustrating to have students like them.

Student #1 - just following the direction.

Student #2 - wrong exam.

Student #3 - very creative.

Student #4 - very clever.

Dropped by Divi

I went to Divisoria earlier today to do my Christmas shopping. I thought I'd be buying a lot of toys for my nieces and nephews (there's about eight of them) so I asked my Mom to shop with me. We agreed to meet in Alabang. I was early and my Mom was still on her way so I decided to check online if I already have my Christmas bonus and of course to feed my Twilight addiction. The 9-peso worth of Internet hours couldn't have made me happier.

Me and my Mom ate lunch first before going to Divisoria. We rode a bus to Lawton via Skyway. Traffic was awful and at 1 p.m. I started to think that this was a bad idea. We arrived at Divisoria at around 1:30 p.m. and judging from the horde of people everywhere, I thought my Mom's idea of just giving money as Christmas gift was the best way to go. Why didn't I listen to her? Well, I never do and I'm not gonna start now. Since we're already at the cheapskate's haven, why not make the most of it?

Dang! I can barely move! There were so many people that it's pretty hard to move from one store to another. Sometimes there's no way to go than with the flow. (Forgive the cliched expression.) With a lot of toys/things to choose from, I was only able to buy gifts for 2 of my nieces. Wah! I have a long way to go. What am I going to do? I have to leave or I'll be late for work. Oh well, I guess I'll just give money on Christmas day.

Non-practicing Catholic

I'm a Catholic and I haven't been to church for a long time. For Catholics, it's a taboo. But, I just happen to prefer talking to God in my own time and in private. I think I just put on a show when I pray in church. I get overly conscious like somebody's recording my silent prayer (paranoid!) so I can't really concentrate. Now, I don't know how to pray anymore. It's been a long time. I hope I can still remember how to do it.